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Where are you in the process?  (apps, acceptances, denials, financial aid, etc.)

As college gets closer (by the day!), how are you feeling about it?  

How is your family?

What decisions have been made at this point?

What's on your mind?

I'm relieved that I heard from all my schools already. Unfortunately, I got denied from San Diego but i'm over it. I've been slacking off academically almost all through out high school (go figure, I would start slacking off when grades matter the most...) and it came with consenquences. That's alright though because this only makes me want to work harder.

As college gets closer, I get more nervous. I mean, I'd be excited if I knew where I wanted to go, what I wanted to do but I don't and it sucks. Most people already know where they're going, what field they're studying in and i'm just here... It's REALLY annoying and I feel like schools should start emphasizing more on choosing a career path because that's basically why we go to school, right? The school system just doesn't make sense to me sometimes.

My family is financially struggling. I mean, I think we've always been but now it's worse since we have a bigger family. It's kinda sad knowing how much we're struggling; my mom is working/volunteering on minimum wage (or no pay at all...) with a degree for work experience so she can hoepfully find a higher position with a better pay. My dad is unemployed and his lechon (he roasts pig and distributes meat)  business isn't doing so hot either. It's just sad. Not too long ago, my dad asked to borrow $500 for rent because he was short on money. I don't know, it just breaks my heart to see my parents struggling like this and that's why I'm leaning towards a CC, even though I really don't want to go to one.

I am applying to a lot of scholarship though. I recently went to Ms. Villagomez's class and picked up a buch of scholarships! :D

I have made no decisions yet.......

I'm just stressing because of college and finances and it really, really, really sucks.

Second Post

Growing up, I always thought that parents by default had a set bank account dedicated to their childrens's college fund. Now that i'm older, i'm starting to find out that that's not neccassarily true. My parents never told me but i'm 99.9% positive that they don't have one. They've been telling me to go to a community college first then transfer because it's cheaper. BUT I don't want to do that! I wanna go straight to a four year. I'm trying to earn some money to help my parents but $9 an hour isn't really going pay for tuition. I'm still trying though!

Oh, that reminds me. My mom just graduated college and she's currently taking extra classes and volunteering to get work experience in to make her more competitive for hiring. I'm reaaalllly proud of her for doing all of this. She's so hard working and determined to make something out of her life despite the fact that she's already hit her 40's. She's so eager to learn and always tells me that she wishes she had the chance to go to High School because she's so behind compared to everyone in her classes. Sometimes, that makes me feel bad about complaining about school. 

But yeah. 

That's it (:

FIRST POST!!!!

WELL: 

1.  What are you stressed about right now?  Why is it stressing you out?

I'm stressed about a looooot of things. Keeping up with my AP classes and trying to figure out what I want to do after high school and how i'm going to pay for college. I'm also trying to sign up for scholarships but having a job and juggling things takes up all my time and when I do have time, I'm too tired to make a good essay.

2.  What steps are you taking to alleviate your stress?  What more could you do to manage your stress?

I'm trying to be more organized and i'm making sure that I get the concept in each class. I could rest more and not work as much. But then again, I need the money so... idk. I can practice my breathing, LOL.. It actually works though. When you're mad just take deep breathes and it isn't as bad! 

3.  What are 2 things you are looking forward to in the next month?

HMMM.... nothing specific. OH +Paulineb2013 (I think that's how you tag people on this weird blog site...) reminded me about Winter Break. I'm always ready for break :D I'm also really looking forward to see progress in school work and in myself next month.

4.  Where are you in the college process right now?  (waiting, heard back from___, still need to ___, etc.) 

The only college I heard back from atm is San Francisco state. I'm waiting to hear back from all the other schools which I'm really nervous about.

Seeing all these people get scholarships to privates make me wish I applied to privates. But then again, it's so expensive that with a scholarship I think i'd be in debt for like 100 years.

PICTURES OF THE DAAAAY!!!!

Not gonna lie, the last picture kinda scares me but... lol